Friends

Since i always need an obsession to get through life my new obsession is friends! it's like one of the funniest shows ever! the problem is my mum hates the show... she is a pretty strict Muslim so she doesn't like to hear about sex and stuff... but then again neither should i...

Isn't life just sad...

Today was a weird day... First as i was walking to school i saw a dead rat on the floor. Then in school my friend kayleigh was being bullied by her friends. THEN as i was walking out the school gate this guy pulled my head scarf off. It may not seem like it but it was embarrassing because i hadn't brushed my hair that morning and high schoolers care a lot about the nonsense.

And i forgot to tell i didn't wake up happy that morning.

Do you ever get that feeling when you wake up and you'd wish the world would disappear. hat's how i felt, then i realised for the thousandth time in my life no matter how much you think someone will actually keep your secrets and really like you

they don't.

All they do is care about themselves.

that's how it is.

Alone In The Dark

OK so a few weeks ago i felt a strong hard urge to play a scary game. I think i watched a movie or something... whatever. Anyway my brothers only had one scary game on their XBOX 360 which was alone in the dark. i shit my pants even before i played the damn game ha ha! :P i got my sis to play with me! at first it was just a thing we did when we we're bored now it's like an OBSESSION!

(note: i think i always need to be obsessed with something or my brain'll explode, first it as kingdom hearts, then it was ugly Betty, now it's alone in the dark)

We've gotten past all the roots of evil that were sticking out the ground, yeah we killed every single one of them now we have like 100 spectral vision!

(it's this kind of 6th sense where you can see zombies and roots)

Then we went to this building where there was this massive shield protecting it all but it was weakened because of the decrease in roots.

Now we're inside the earth and going through all these puzzles that are so totally awesome! I'm stuck on the one were the roof caves in.

Anyway if you have any tips or questions PLEASE ASK!!! 

i love this game!!!!!

PS. this is gonna sound really creepy but i kinda have a crush on poor 'lil Eddy AKA Edward even though he's like a 100 years old!

ha ha yeah i know I'm sad! }:P

Figure me out not...

Why do people feel they need to figure us teenagers out? Just because you may think that we're all out of whack and stupid and stuff doesn't mean we really are or we really do it on purpose. I guess that's just the was adults are... they need to know absolutely everything or their brains explode, well that's how they make themselves appear. Teachers think we do all the bad stuff on purpose like we demons sent from the devil himself to send all the adults mad. Teachers... they makes us feel as if they're the boss and they always will be. It's almost like they think we don't know were going to be older and have responsibilities, it's like they feel we're ignorant of the fact that we might be parents someday. We know that, we know we're probably going to have the house all to ourselves and have no one to clean up after us but seriously we know that fact and that's the reason we act all dumb and stupid and silly. It's because we don't want to waste all our teenage years studying hard and then when we're finally grown up we won't even be able to have fun like this again.

It's just like my childhood. I dodn't run around or play like all the others kids because despite my age i was always aware of how i looked and what i would look like if i ran around and acted stupid. Now that i'm a teen it's like i should've played and messes about while i still had the chance... When no one would judge me harshly.  

High School Sucks...

i don't think all you grownup's on here remember but in high school there will always be a time where nobody likes you. I mean Sure you can be fun and goofy and nice but you can't stay that way forever. So there'll always be a time where being a teenager is just too much...

BoyFriends and Best Friends

I hate how when girls get boyfriends they go so kookoo over them. It's cool having a boyfriend yeah but whatever happened to friends. Girls seem to forget all about them when they get a bf, they never seem to have time or place for the people who they've known all their lives. After hearts are broken and tears are shed. you'll regret picking the boy over a friend.

The Gorld Going By

I wish i could just stay cooped up in my room and never leave just so the world can go past without me. No one would miss me, except my teachers and the few friends i have. The real friends i mean. Anyone living in reality would know what i mean.

All I'd do was think that the world was really like the quotes on google say. Like i used to think when i was 10. Like my older sister sees it when she's a bit hyper.

The only reason i can't is i need to go to school, it's actually become a habit getting up at exactly 7:00am in the morning.

it's actually a bit annoying on the weekend.

If i could just stay in my room all I'd need to do was sit and draw, (don't forget write) about all the imaginary things in my head.

Unlike most of those brain dead girls out there,

i don't need a big strong guy (ew)

I can look after myself

...Oh and no offence guys.

Love to Blog

I've noticed i haven't even posted on thi blog since FOREVER! ok well last month but yeah i'm a teen obviously i'm gonna exagrate.
I don't know why i just love blogging, i think it's just because i can write whatever comes to mind!
and i don't know why i just told you that???
well it is a random blog XD

You really want to know?

Damn my computer! There's is always something wrong with it but i guess it blew up in my face just like my life did. Let's start with the computer, A couple weeks ago think something was wrong with the charger, then we had to get it fixed turns out there's nothing up with the charger, it was the batteries. STUPID Compaq Co. Charged us for doing nothing with the charger and couldn't be bothered fixing the actual problem! Now the Dongle aint working either! so i have to go to the damn library now! and since I'm a very lazy person it's kinda explains that i hate exercise.
Secondly over the last weeks, my school life has just gotten like the shittiest. IT's even worser then my fiast year in high school. And thatb was bad. really bad.
My best friend went out with this guy and i was ok with that except when i stopped seeing her and our whole intire freidnship went down the plughole.
Then she broke up with him and i still didn't see her because she finally noticed another old friend of her's and decided she should start hanging around with her.
Now it feels like i have no friends and no one to talk to.
and i feel as if my whiole entire educational life is going to hell.
You may think i'm juist looking for someone to blame but this is all her fault.
ALL HER DAMN FAULT!
i hate her so much not only for ruining my life but also because no matter what she does, nomatter how wrong it is, she always get's away with it. everytime, and all her scars seem like there were never there.
god i hate her.

PS. My brother won't stop calling me fat and i know everyone else thinks i'm fat but they deny it anyway.

Daily blogs???

i don't get how people can have a "daily" blog? i know it sounds easy, but seriously, don't you forget or something... wonder if any daily bloggers ever miss days then like i don't know? get told off by the readers or sumit?

SO Bored!!!

It has been ages since i last went on this blog... i think... anyway, the weekends have been ELONGATED thanks to school, never thought I'd say that, anyway i don't even know why i even write on this blog, no one reads it,
i just like talking to myself without talking! Anyway feel free to comment! Whoever you are! where ever you are! ... whatever you are.... COMMENT!

i gotta get a new laptop...

I'm really HATING my laptop, lately. Earlier today my sis was on so when she went out i switched to my username then EVERYTHING WAS GONE!!! my (thousand and thousands) of files! luckily i had it all restored, (in the wrong place but that's OK), now my Internets going funny saying "I'm about to turn off because i hate you" OK not exactly but you know what i mean. NOW all my buttons on the keyboard and typing properly!!!! GGGRRRR..... i just got my charger fixed as well... :'(

Wilkinson Sword Ad

I love that Wilkinson Sword Ad. I just love the music...

but i don't know if i like the full song...

tell me if you do (or don't, whatever)

Has the day passed already?

This mornin i was on m sisters account on the web and i came on blogger. m sis was like "tell me what you were gonna blog, I'll write it down" and i was like "I've forgotten" ;P ANYWAY, i know what I'll blog now, just that. Whenever i sit down and log onto blogger my fingers just start to type but then it was like the whole world was looking at what i was typing (which is kinda true >.<) just because she was there sitting near me. Well she's sitting near me rocking madly (oops she noticed what i was writing)  but my fingers keep typing unmeaningly. Wow i hadn't noticed I'd written so much YAY! bye ;D

Sometimes, I'm glad i tried, Because you think you're going to mess up (like always) but you succeed. I really hate when i don't try and i miss the experience, whether i succeed or not. At least i still have next time.



Broken promises, broken dreams, broken love :(  but no worries, i'm not mad at you, c'mon let's go to the store and buy some super glue. ;D

Life is wierd sometimes

in school we've been learning stuff about collage and what're we going to be when we're older, since i am in year 9 now. and I've been thinking I've gotta widen my talents and skills all i pretty much know is how to draw and write and read. that's it. how  am i supposed to do anything with that? i want to become an author but what if that don't come through what else? i guess I'll just have to do some research and see how it comes through? D:

new beginings

Life is like the sea. Sometimes it's up! and sometimes it's down. sometimes it's angry and vicious other times it's calm and clear. Most of the time it's going fine but sometimes it just gets it's hopes too high.
Life's confusing, it can go so wrong when you want it to be right, but you shouldn't judge it wrongly, life's just as confused as you are. life can be tough but you should remember that it'll smooth out and brighten up soon enough. don't go thinking there's no hope because in every smile and every star and ever place near and far there is hope and people who care, there are people just like you and completely different, people who you might not like who will always be near and people who you love dearly and will have to leave but there's still hope and when people leave you, remember it just makes you stronger and prepares you for when life let's you down. but light will come back, someday...

Not myself anymore

hello! i have no idea where to start. let's start with school. my grades, levels, marks, let's start with English it's the most important for me, lately my levels have been dropping, in English, science, RE, PE. English is the most important to me since i want to be an author  when i older.m I'm still in the top sets for most things. the problem with the whole top set thing is that my best friend (let's just say her names... Daisy) says that all the top sets are boring and lame. it may not seem like a threat or so bad, but if in my shoes you'll know how sensitive i am and how much that makes me feel, she's not the nice, funny, exciting friend she was when i met her. she's still exciting and fun but she cares way too much of what people think of her and she's always gossiping like and old woman. nest thing i just feel less, myself. like I'm not my "hello beautiful world! everybody's equal and everyone's special!" no not anymore. now it's just like "everyone's way way WAY better then me" i have no idea why. I'm just not feeling like I'm something. My favourite quote is "whoever mind don't matter and whoever matter don't mind" I love that quote because it's true, but that just doesn't seem to work for me anymore no matter how much i tell myself that i shouldn't think about what people think about me. I'm really confused and it's just not me anymore.

Enjoy life whilst you can :D

it's sounds weird coming from a teenager but of course when doing all the chores you do wish you could be a little kid again. No homework, No mean teachers, No chores. you're just allowed to be happy the way you are. i doubt there are any snobby kiddies. well maybe who knows? anyway i guess i just miss being a kid, life goes so fast.

no more time.

i haven't written anything in a while. 1) my siblings haven't let me go on for a while. whenever the dongles alive my Sib's go crazy over it. then when it gets broken the laptops abandoned beside me using it. it's like they don't know it costs money. sometimes i can't believe I'm one of the youngest. 2) I've been kind of busy getting ready for school and homework and everything else.
 
so bored.