29th dec

great. my older, stupid, idiotic, brother's birthday today. it was my older sisters 4 days ago. yeah christmas. i hate my brother so much. i have four of them. anyway for the past four years i got nothing for my birthdayn. NOTHING! and now my 17 year old brothers is getting everything he's ever dreamed of. now tell me IS THAT FAIR!!!! grrrr... sometimes i feel as if i'm the oldest, the one that doesn't get anything for any occasion, that's where in my family it's like this: my brothers buy themselves stuff, my little brothers moans for stuff and get's it, my dad get's my sister anything she wants, and i don't get anything! ok i know i sound really babyish and everything, but REALLY is that how it's meant to go?! i know i should think of how fortunate i am and everything. guess i'll just have to deal with it.

I Hate Visitors

this may sound a little cruel or mean or whatever but i hate my aunts. sounds just like cinderella, well she hated her mom so. it's just because i have to wash the dishes, clean the floor, mop, brush, sweep, clean, dry and whatever else you can do! and everyone should know, i'm a very lazy person. i HATE cleaning, it's so boring. anyway i just hate my aunts because well if you met them you'd hate them too. they gossip WAY WAY too much, and the oldest is just *shudder* i can't even describe her! she's way too bosy and she's so CRUEL!!!! the others are nice though. it's just all the GOSSIPING!!!! sheesh.

Boredom...

i wouldn't normally say anything like this publicly, but i think I'm being imprisoned in my own house! i can't go anywhere, do anything, where is my life going?! well i am only 13 but still! even my friends have better lives then mine! they're always talking about how they're going out tomorrow and blah blah blah and here i am stuck at home! then a again *Asian man voice* "a woman's duty is at home cleaning and cooking for her husband" well in my case my stupid ignorant brothers and chocolate-bringing dad. that's about the only good thing that comes out of making my dad happy, his love and the fact if i make his coffee just right in the morning he'll get me a nice big bar of chocolate. There's another thing to talk about my mum's always saying (just because I'm a little bigger then my older sister) that I'll always eat her things. OK let me rephrase that, I'll always eat the things she doesn't want or has left, OK when i was about ten i did that but then i turned 11 and heard that it was a disgrace to humanity and all it's goodness so i stopped ¬.¬ sometimes it feels like the world is trying to get me in my own house! well there are a lot of good things, my mum can't taunt me in my room, i can blog it all out, and my sister doesn't think I'm fat (she thinks I'm just a little chubby and bigger then the other girls, who are totally anorexic in my class). *sigh* the world is no place for bored little Muslim girls. OK maybe it is.