Isn't life just sad...

Today was a weird day... First as i was walking to school i saw a dead rat on the floor. Then in school my friend kayleigh was being bullied by her friends. THEN as i was walking out the school gate this guy pulled my head scarf off. It may not seem like it but it was embarrassing because i hadn't brushed my hair that morning and high schoolers care a lot about the nonsense.

And i forgot to tell i didn't wake up happy that morning.

Do you ever get that feeling when you wake up and you'd wish the world would disappear. hat's how i felt, then i realised for the thousandth time in my life no matter how much you think someone will actually keep your secrets and really like you

they don't.

All they do is care about themselves.

that's how it is.

Figure me out not...

Why do people feel they need to figure us teenagers out? Just because you may think that we're all out of whack and stupid and stuff doesn't mean we really are or we really do it on purpose. I guess that's just the was adults are... they need to know absolutely everything or their brains explode, well that's how they make themselves appear. Teachers think we do all the bad stuff on purpose like we demons sent from the devil himself to send all the adults mad. Teachers... they makes us feel as if they're the boss and they always will be. It's almost like they think we don't know were going to be older and have responsibilities, it's like they feel we're ignorant of the fact that we might be parents someday. We know that, we know we're probably going to have the house all to ourselves and have no one to clean up after us but seriously we know that fact and that's the reason we act all dumb and stupid and silly. It's because we don't want to waste all our teenage years studying hard and then when we're finally grown up we won't even be able to have fun like this again.

It's just like my childhood. I dodn't run around or play like all the others kids because despite my age i was always aware of how i looked and what i would look like if i ran around and acted stupid. Now that i'm a teen it's like i should've played and messes about while i still had the chance... When no one would judge me harshly.  

You really want to know?

Damn my computer! There's is always something wrong with it but i guess it blew up in my face just like my life did. Let's start with the computer, A couple weeks ago think something was wrong with the charger, then we had to get it fixed turns out there's nothing up with the charger, it was the batteries. STUPID Compaq Co. Charged us for doing nothing with the charger and couldn't be bothered fixing the actual problem! Now the Dongle aint working either! so i have to go to the damn library now! and since I'm a very lazy person it's kinda explains that i hate exercise.
Secondly over the last weeks, my school life has just gotten like the shittiest. IT's even worser then my fiast year in high school. And thatb was bad. really bad.
My best friend went out with this guy and i was ok with that except when i stopped seeing her and our whole intire freidnship went down the plughole.
Then she broke up with him and i still didn't see her because she finally noticed another old friend of her's and decided she should start hanging around with her.
Now it feels like i have no friends and no one to talk to.
and i feel as if my whiole entire educational life is going to hell.
You may think i'm juist looking for someone to blame but this is all her fault.
ALL HER DAMN FAULT!
i hate her so much not only for ruining my life but also because no matter what she does, nomatter how wrong it is, she always get's away with it. everytime, and all her scars seem like there were never there.
god i hate her.

PS. My brother won't stop calling me fat and i know everyone else thinks i'm fat but they deny it anyway.