Life is wierd sometimes

in school we've been learning stuff about collage and what're we going to be when we're older, since i am in year 9 now. and I've been thinking I've gotta widen my talents and skills all i pretty much know is how to draw and write and read. that's it. how  am i supposed to do anything with that? i want to become an author but what if that don't come through what else? i guess I'll just have to do some research and see how it comes through? D:

new beginings

Life is like the sea. Sometimes it's up! and sometimes it's down. sometimes it's angry and vicious other times it's calm and clear. Most of the time it's going fine but sometimes it just gets it's hopes too high.
Life's confusing, it can go so wrong when you want it to be right, but you shouldn't judge it wrongly, life's just as confused as you are. life can be tough but you should remember that it'll smooth out and brighten up soon enough. don't go thinking there's no hope because in every smile and every star and ever place near and far there is hope and people who care, there are people just like you and completely different, people who you might not like who will always be near and people who you love dearly and will have to leave but there's still hope and when people leave you, remember it just makes you stronger and prepares you for when life let's you down. but light will come back, someday...

Not myself anymore

hello! i have no idea where to start. let's start with school. my grades, levels, marks, let's start with English it's the most important for me, lately my levels have been dropping, in English, science, RE, PE. English is the most important to me since i want to be an author  when i older.m I'm still in the top sets for most things. the problem with the whole top set thing is that my best friend (let's just say her names... Daisy) says that all the top sets are boring and lame. it may not seem like a threat or so bad, but if in my shoes you'll know how sensitive i am and how much that makes me feel, she's not the nice, funny, exciting friend she was when i met her. she's still exciting and fun but she cares way too much of what people think of her and she's always gossiping like and old woman. nest thing i just feel less, myself. like I'm not my "hello beautiful world! everybody's equal and everyone's special!" no not anymore. now it's just like "everyone's way way WAY better then me" i have no idea why. I'm just not feeling like I'm something. My favourite quote is "whoever mind don't matter and whoever matter don't mind" I love that quote because it's true, but that just doesn't seem to work for me anymore no matter how much i tell myself that i shouldn't think about what people think about me. I'm really confused and it's just not me anymore.

Enjoy life whilst you can :D

it's sounds weird coming from a teenager but of course when doing all the chores you do wish you could be a little kid again. No homework, No mean teachers, No chores. you're just allowed to be happy the way you are. i doubt there are any snobby kiddies. well maybe who knows? anyway i guess i just miss being a kid, life goes so fast.

no more time.

i haven't written anything in a while. 1) my siblings haven't let me go on for a while. whenever the dongles alive my Sib's go crazy over it. then when it gets broken the laptops abandoned beside me using it. it's like they don't know it costs money. sometimes i can't believe I'm one of the youngest. 2) I've been kind of busy getting ready for school and homework and everything else.
 
so bored.