29th dec

great. my older, stupid, idiotic, brother's birthday today. it was my older sisters 4 days ago. yeah christmas. i hate my brother so much. i have four of them. anyway for the past four years i got nothing for my birthdayn. NOTHING! and now my 17 year old brothers is getting everything he's ever dreamed of. now tell me IS THAT FAIR!!!! grrrr... sometimes i feel as if i'm the oldest, the one that doesn't get anything for any occasion, that's where in my family it's like this: my brothers buy themselves stuff, my little brothers moans for stuff and get's it, my dad get's my sister anything she wants, and i don't get anything! ok i know i sound really babyish and everything, but REALLY is that how it's meant to go?! i know i should think of how fortunate i am and everything. guess i'll just have to deal with it.